I’ll get right to the point: I have been locked up in a chastity device. My wife no longer sees the benefits of chastity on the honor system, and no longer desires “instant access.” Instead, she prefers that I have a constant reminder of my submissiveness and slowly deepening sense of femininity. Keeping my cock at a maximum of 2.5″ long will help improve both of these.
She has become more comfortable in her dominant nature, and our sex life is increasingly exclusively about her. It makes no difference to her if I cum after I’m done pleasuring her. But it does make a difference if I am obedient, attentive, loving, doting, and caring, and not cumming after sex promotes all of this. She (and I) believe enforced chastity will support this.
For anyone wondering, I’m locked away in a cute pink Holy Trainer v2. It’s quite comfortable. I’m now wearing it nearly full time, with a removal once every other day for cleaning and checking for chafing.
This is truly a new world for me, with so much to write about. The sensations of being locked away are difficult for someone of my limited writing abilities to describe. After less than a week since my last (ruined) orgasm, and over a week since my last full one, chastity has truly has made me more eager to please, more agreeable and docile.
The constant knowledge that I’ve surrendered such an important part of myself to my wife is a powerful emotion that’s hard to express. My focus on my wife is completely renewed, and I have a new sense of myself as a conduit through which great things happen to other people. My fulfillment is to be found in the fulfillment of others, and while I certainly feel physically frustrated and emasculated, I feel emotionally energized to please others.
Being locked has helped me build up the courage to accept further steps on my feminization. My wife loves cuddling with my bare legs, so I’ve begun shaving them. I’ll soon be completely hairless below the waist. Depending on how my diet goes, I will aim to be at the skinniest I have been in over a decade, and I hope to be hairless below the neck in the not-too-distant future.
I also hope to find better ways to talk about these things. I sometimes feel like I’m incapable of making something as erotic as my gradual feminization and sissification sound like doing the taxes.
I have no idea how this is all going to end up. I don’t know when I’m going to be allowed my next erection, let alone when I’ll get to touch myself (or be touched). I know better than to ask when my next orgasm might be.
I’m very excited about this new chapter! I would gladly give up my orgasms for all of 2015 if I knew it meant I could feel this feeling all the time. I would love to hear from other couples in a similar dynamic about how chastity has enhanced your marriage, led to further feminization, and made you both happier!
I would also like to know if there’s interest in seeing pictures of me in my cage, and/or a review of the Holy Trainer. I’m ambivalent about these things on other people’s blogs, but if there’s a desire I’ll be happy to fulfill it…